Sometimes the most gut wrenching things that happen in your life are caused by an outside source. You can be in your own world trying to walk a straight line and build a positive life for yourself and your future and drama can fall right in your lap. In the past I have addressed the drama. I fussed, I fought. Whatever you can think of I did it.
Quite recently I found myself in battle of words with someone I hold very dear to my heart. The tone, the words that were said left me in an ocean of tears. How could this person harbor so much anger towards me and I think the world of them? That’s when I realized some of the people closest to you sometimes have the most negative things to say about you. Some things may be true but a lot of things are that person searching high and low for negatives to make you feel bad and bring you down to their hurting soul. Besides if a person who cares wants to provide criticism to you, a personal, un hostile setting would be ideal for such a situation. Some people appreciate the fact of magnifying your flaws with an attempt to humiliate you in front of others.
Those battle of words I had with a loved one recently left me physically and mentally drained. I had to step back to get away from it all and focus on me. I can’t deal with the negativity and drama so I had to ask myself why do you let people push you to stoop to their level? I’m on a different path and silly things that don’t impact myself or the world positively are beneath me. I will learn to turn the cheek more and realize there may always be just as much negative being thrown at me as positive. I cannot control others but I can most definitely control me.
A friend of mine recently offered me some advice saying, “don’t fight every battle that comes your way.” I’ve found that not everyone thinks I’m a great person. Not everyone understands and appreciate who I am. Truth is I would be one tired woman trying to battle it out with everyone who speaks or feels poorly of me. I’m confident enough to know I am an awesome, imperfect soul. I cannot argue and convince a person to see the positive in me when all they want to see is negative. Why even waste all my energy to do so when I am surrounded by others who see the greatness in me? Walking away is more satisfying than indulging myself in battles and petty drama. I try to treat everyone with kindness because that’s how I would like to be treated in return. I can control my words and thought process but I can’t control those of others. Turning a cheek to mess is the best thing ever for me. Xoxo Soulfully True