On my way to work this morning I was thinking about a lot of things that I have going on in my life. Some of these things I deal with everyday. These thoughts do include negative situations that affect many areas of my life. These situations are not necessarily major but they’re things that I deal with daily. Honestly I try my best not to focus on these negative things because I know my time to move on from them is quickly approaching. I do get tired though and want to break down and want to wish certain circumstances away because they sometimes make me become a person I do not like. I find myself more irritated and caught in the middle of a lot of not exactly happy people. I have to put on a smile and keep myself positive but of course I have my moments.
I am blessed with friends and family who are good listeners to help me get through the tough situations. Thing is I don’t want to continue bringing my negative situations to people and I no longer want it brought to me. I’ve found that giving it too much of your energy takes a toll on your mind. I told myself I need more help spiritually. I need God to put things in perspective for me with the things I’m dealing with. He can and he will I just have to give him the wheel and receive the peace, wisdom, and strength that he has for me.I need him to work on my attitude and the way I deal with things.
I am for the most part a very positive person but I still have room for growth. I have a lot of things and people who I need to let go of to enable me to live a more peaceful and genuine life. In the midst of my thoughts I changed the radio station and a song called “I’m Taking it Back” by Shirley Caesar came on and I absolutely had a spiritual breakdown. She was saying that she is taking back her mind from all of the negative things. I broke down in tears because I truly needed to hear those words of encouragement.
We all have our own battle in this world be it small or large. We have to be very careful not to feed too much into them though because like everything in this world, IT TOO SHALL PASS. We cannot lose our peaceful mindset or strength when dealing with these battles. All I could do is thank God because I know I need to take it back (my mind). I can’t continue feeding into things and talking about things because it absolutely does not make it better. It actually causes more problems. I have goals I am working on. I’m a step closer to being in my chosen career field, I thrive to be a better mom,to become more spiritually in touch, a better example to others, a better friend and a host of other things. I have to keep looking ahead and not let negative situations take over my mind!! I’m taking it back! Soulfully True